Have any of you lost a fair amount of weight but haven't quite internalized the "new" you that you see in the mirror? Do you acknowledge mathematically that you weigh less (or possibly weigh the same, but your body composition has changed such that your physique looks completely different), but you feel the same inside your head?
I'm about 132 now. My highest weight several years ago was 158. I know that doesn't sound like much of a loss, but I'm only 5'2", so 26 pounds makes a big difference.
Anyway, when I was younger (and chubbier), I was sort of asexual. The notion that a man would look at me and be interested was so far off my radar the possibility was just nonexistent. (In my mind, at least.) If anyone was ever "checking me out," I wasn't aware of it because it was simply so far outside the realm of what I knew.
Now, though, I actually notice it happening all the time. I've always had poor self-esteem related to body image, but I'm much more comfortable in my skin now than I've ever been before. So I carry myself differently (on good days, anyway...I still have bad, but I think that's only human nature for a youngish woman in our society), and I dress differently. Not showy/flashy and heaven forbid "slutty." SO far from it, in fact. I just dress nicely, y'know? Stuff that flatters my best features. Generally, I'd say that with how great I feel, I just look more vibrant, alive, and energetic, and that, probably more than my thinner shape, is what men are responding to.
Aaaaanyway, I'm from NYC. So the first few times I noticed a guy looking at me as I passed by, my first reaction was, "What the bleep are you lookin' at, buddy?!" And then I thought, Is my fly open? Did I spill something on myself? It took a while before it occurred to me that...holy cow...wait a sec...they're not looking at me because something's wrong; they looking at me because I look good!
It still blows my mind a little. I've been at my lower weight for a while now, but I still feel like "the fat girl." I'm not talking body dysmorphia. It's not that I look in the mirror and see someone who's 4 times my size and literally can't recognize that I'm smaller now. I guess it's more that we tend to focus on how far we feel we still have to go, rather than being proud and amazed at how far we've already come.
(And hey, while we're at it, yes, let's please celebrate how far we've come instead of lamenting that last millimeter of jiggle that no one notices but you. And if you haven't come very far, celebrate anyway! You're here, getting information and starting on a great journey, right? Be proud of yourself for that! We all start somewhere.)