I've been struggling A LOT with this recently. I would appreciate any thoughts.
I've been "officially" paleo for about two months now. But lately, I've been slipping... a lot. Though I feel much much better - more energy, no sugar crash, etc. - when I eat true paleo, I've been falling back into old eating habits. A major part of this is that I've had issues with compulsive eating pretty much my whole life. So slipping is not just a "cheat", it's binge eating. Carbs and sugar recently (or even cheese, which I cut out of my diet), though when I was doing better about staying paleo it would be nuts or dried fruit.
So I've been reading up about compulsive eating because OH MY GOODNESS I want to work through and fix it. (I'm actually pretty sure I've gained weight in the past two months because of it!) A lot of what I am seeing is that restrictive diets tend to lead to binge eating. That makes sense to me. So is that what is happening to me? Has that happened to any of you? My compulsive eating has gotten quite bad lately, more intense than it ever has been. I don't know if that's because I've been restricting myself with paleo, and then psychologically I want to rebel so I'll overeat something non-paleo like cereal or cookies, or even something on the not-steak-and-veggies side of paleo like nut butters. Or maybe it's unrelated to paleo and more related to my current life situation (which is pretty unhappy).
I've been considering expanding my diet a bit to see what would happen (if I continued to be trapped in binge compulsive eating). This might mean eating non-gluten grains like rice or oats or quinoa; letting myself eat as much fruit and nuts as I want; and maybe eating cheese and milk. Basically, I would just stick with no wheat no sugar and no processed foods, which I'm pretty sure I could do (cause those things really make me FEEL bad). No legumes, either... though I can't say I really miss my tofu or lentils. Do you guys have any thoughts about that? I'd LOOOOOVE any help/input/thoughts before I try. If I'm still eating compulsively/bingeing when I eat those things, then I guess I might have a better idea if paleo is making my disordered eating any worse.
(I don't agree with those people, though, who say you should let yourself have ANYTHING when you're trying to overcome compulsive eating - like cake or cookies or whatever - eating that stuff will just make you want more! I think rice or oats aren't as druglike and addicting.)
Maybe I should add that I generally eat compulsively when I'm feeling bored, alone, unhappy, or dissatisfied. I'm not sure that it even has anything to do with WHAT I'm eating... I mean I'm not one of those people that would ever ever eat a whole tub of ice cream or tons of fast food or something. It's about the actual act of eating, not about the food itself. It just so happens, though, that it's a whole lot easier to overeat carbs or starch or sugar, or nuts. So that's what I tend to go towards.
Thanks in advance! Much love for everyone on this site, I don't feel so alone (or crazy) when I come on here...