I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I'm not the only one who struggles with it, but I feel like I just can't control myself when I eat. It's either I start my morning knowing it's going to be a fast day and feel in control, or I eat food and a switch is turned on where I just want to munch munch munch all day. I hate it. Even on a ketogenic diet... it just makes me crave carbs more and then I end up eating wayyy too much again, hating myself for it, and fasting the next day. I'm trying to lose weight and I just don't know what to do. It's a horrible cycle. Fasting the next day is usually easy... as long as food doesn't touch my tastebuds, I'm fine. My relationship with food is just awful though. I've gone on 7, 10, and 14 day fasts before and have felt like those are the ONLY times where I ever feel in control of my eating habits, but once I start eating again, after a few days I start eating WAYY too much yet AGAIN. I've tried SO many times to have a consistent, balanced, menu but I end up overeating, hating myself, and fasting yet again. It's like a vicious cycle and I don't know what to do. Maybe I'm just an all or nothing person... and I should try to make alternate day fasting my permanent menu? are there alternate day fasters out there who have this problem too? :( I've gained 10 lbs from these binges over the last few weeks (more binges than fasting days), and I almost feel like giving up and just fasting for another week. I don't know what to do.
5"1, 125 lbs, 16 yrs old.
Perhaps at 16, fasting should not be included in your paleo routine. I know you are an individual with the right to make your own choices, and I hate it when people discourage my choices. However, your body is in a very delicate metobolic state, almost like being pregnant or something. Your body needs caloric input all the time to complete your growth process, i.e finishing touches on your reproductive system, brain development, muscle strength, etc. Wait a little while on the fasting, because you could funk up your metabolism for your adulthood, trust me I had an eating disorder as a teen and really wrecked myself. Maybe add more fat to your diet, eat butter and avacados, bacon, etc.. it will curb your appetite and give your body what it needs, plus great hair, skin and nails.
I have read many articles that say fasting is not all that healthy for women. With that said I personally think fasting can be the beginning of an eating disorder without you even realizing it is happening. A lot of people think of bulimia as being the disease of those who throw up their food, but actually fasting or over exercising to cancel out something you eat is also technically bulimia if it becomes a habit. Stop it before it starts! Your body needs nutrition,and you may likely find that when you stop fasting you will actually eat less because you will not feel the urge to binge at the end of the fast. Also spreading out your calories allows your body to better burn them off. I have personally found thy eliminating tubers, dairy, all grains (including rice), or very sugary fruits can also reduce the urge to binge. It may take a couple days but reducing very carby foods and shockingly (to me) eating more fat can reduce the urge to binge.
"brain over binge" ebook. fantastic, I haved binged for over 10 years no matter what I do. This book has given me new thinking on the subject. I understand completely what it feels like, you are not alone!
Amber, are your parents aware of your disordered relationship with food? I am deeply concerned about a 16-year-old turning to complete strangers on the internet about such a serious issue. Looking at your history of questions, this is something that should really be taken up with a mental health professional that specializes in eating disorders.
You are still developing and your body requires nutrient dense foods. Starving yourself for extended periods will cause irreversible damage. Please, please, please have a frank conversation with your parents, a school counselor, your MD, a trusted relative, ANYONE that can help you.
Those binges are most likely the result of those fasting periods. Please do not fast anymore till you get your binges under control. Actually, I would not even do any fasting period. I have fasted in the past and it was not a good experiment for me.
I have started binge eating after I went on a very restrictive diet (due to medical reasons). It took me a long long time to become binge free. I no longer binge.
The best way to get rid of binging behavior is prevention. Eat a diet very high in nutrients (not calories, but nutrients). For me personally it is Terry Wahls diet. Just imagine that your meals are your medicine and eat all that she prescribes (3 cups of green, 3 cups of color, 3 cups of sulfur-rich, liver, fermented foods, etc.) on a daily basis.
You binges will continue for a while. Do not try to stop them - just go with the flow and try to relax during the binge. After the binge try to calm down. The good part is IF YOU KEEP EATING NUTRIENT DENSE FOODS like kale, green leafy, sulfer-rich, fish, etc. they will become less and less frequent and then you won't have them anymore.
If you know your trigger foods (for me it is anything even remotely sweet, like fruit) - try to avoid them at all costs. I wear a bracelet on my right hand to remind me not to eat anything sweet. I still have sugar cravings once in a while, but they are less severe than my binges and I get so sick after eating anything sweet, it kills my cravings for a long long long time.
If it gets worse or out of control, seek help. Ask your doctor to refer you to an eating disorder clinic. I know at least two people who went through that and recovered. They also train your parents in those clinics - what to say, what not to say, etc. Good luck!
Losing weight is a lot like breathing if you hold your breath for long enough you will breathe in and take in more air than usual. 125 lbs sounds really healthy, and please don't be hard on your self try and focus on the good choices that you make and build from them. I like to keep things simple and just eat three square meals each day with some protein fat and carbohydrate if I feel like I need to lose weight I just tinker with my macros a little (more carbs to fat or vice versa). Good luck Amber I hope you figure it out!