I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I'm not the only one who struggles with it, but I feel like I just can't control myself when I eat. It's either I start my morning knowing it's going to be a fast day and feel in control, or I eat food and a switch is turned on where I just want to munch munch munch all day. I hate it. Even on a ketogenic diet... it just makes me crave carbs more and then I end up eating wayyy too much again, hating myself for it, and fasting the next day. I'm trying to lose weight and I just don't know what to do. It's a horrible cycle. Fasting the next day is usually easy... as long as food doesn't touch my tastebuds, I'm fine. My relationship with food is just awful though. I've gone on 7, 10, and 14 day fasts before and have felt like those are the ONLY times where I ever feel in control of my eating habits, but once I start eating again, after a few days I start eating WAYY too much yet AGAIN. I've tried SO many times to have a consistent, balanced, menu but I end up overeating, hating myself, and fasting yet again. It's like a vicious cycle and I don't know what to do. Maybe I'm just an all or nothing person... and I should try to make alternate day fasting my permanent menu? are there alternate day fasters out there who have this problem too? :( I've gained 10 lbs from these binges over the last few weeks (more binges than fasting days), and I almost feel like giving up and just fasting for another week. I don't know what to do.
5"1, 125 lbs, 16 yrs old.