So I am 21 year old male who back in high school got way to competitive wiht cross country, ran about 50-60 miles a week for a long perioid of time, never able to eat enough, lost about 30-35lbs in the course of a year (2006-2007) stayed there at 105-110lbs until spring 08, quit running and just ate cause I realized how scary i looked and how horrible I felt. Ate a ton of junk, just got a bit chubby at 140 by December 08.. stayed there till I found PB in May 08, went down to 130, was quite fit doing heavy lifting, not too low in the carbs, felt good. Went to Zero carb thinking it would fix some skin issues I had since high school... felt like shit by 2009 and decided I needed some veggies. Stayed Very Low Carb till about August this year when I said screw it and went on a 30 day all raw milk diet, took in about 2500-4000 calories of raw milk a day (again thoght it would heal the skin issue and it actually did mostly).
Since October I have been making a huge effort to eat more, eating at least 100-150 grams of carbs a day through yams, potatoes, trying to get more protein, eat more organ meats, drinking raw milk keifr.. my weight is stable at 137 but I am skinny fat ish. I have muscle and you can see it but there is a fairly thick coating of fat, maybe 7-8lbs (I am 5'7) from the raw milk diet that could probably go.
The problem is... I have just realized that my overtraining and then undereating from a few years ago, combined with going VLC for way too long and lost a bit of weight from that too unintentionally, has really really screwed up my HPA-HPT axis. I have been chronically stressing my body, I don;t sleep well (hard time getting to sleep and wake up alot). I have recently quit melatonin cause I took it since 2008 and I am tired of being reliant on something to sleep.
I want to heal my Hypothalamus, pituitary axis but how can I do this besides sleeping, eating alot, lifting heavy???
I want to bulk up and add some muscle but at this point I'll just get fatter because of my cortisol levels which I think are low in the morning and high at night. My thyroid levels are fine on papaer, very good actually, but I have the anxiety, dry skin, trouble sleeping, etc. Testosertone was low for my age when I tested it back in August but it went up in October after the milk stint.
And funny, the skin sorted itself out pretty much when I just left it alone.... how ironic.
Does anyone have any experience in recovering hormone levels and from chronic stress? I guess I should be looking at recovering anorexics... I am 22 year old male and it really blows to think that I have possibly screwed myself over for life.
Note: All weight loss on said diets was never intentional. If anything, I wanted to be bigger but my skin was always the big issue.