in the past, ive always been so focused on the number on the scale going down, to the detriment of everything else. i started this diet with the primary goal of managing my MS, and a secondary goal of weight loss. immediately i started feeling so much better, and was able to exercise for the first time in YEARS so my goals changed. frankly, after birthing two babies, almost losing one of them in a horrible and tragic accident, and being diagnosed with a chronic disease, life was put into perspective for me. my goals now are long life, healthy life, happy life. im losing weight in the process which is necessary to all of those things, but its not the goal, in and of itself. i have small goals, like adding ten pounds to my deadlift, or running farther, or working to perfect a yoga pose ive been struggling with. i slip back into the scale-watching every now and then, but (i know it sounds corny) i look at the pictures of my daughter on a ventilator in PICU at ten months old, and suddenly my dress size seems like the most petty, selfish, superficial thing in the world.