I don't really know what to do here. I've been eating meat for the last ten years or so after being vegetarian for most of my life, but I still only ate it fairly rarely. I never cooked it at home, but would order it if we were out. Other than when I'm pregnant, Ive never really had any issue eating it before but lately I've been gagging and almost retching whenever I eat any meat at all, even fish. I thought it would go away with time, but it's getting worse.
Unlike when I'm pregnant, the smell is delicious, I crave it, and it tastes good. I can't figure it out. Sometimes I do find myself thinking about it too much- I'm not someone who is totally comfortable eating animal flesh and it kind of makes me a bit uncomfortable when I think about it in too much detail. I had to trim a very fresh pork shoulder yesterday and it still had blood clots, veins, bone shards and I was just gagging and dry heaving as I was doing it. It's very strange! Even when I was vegan I didn't have this kind of aversion.
Any clues as to what might be going on? Anyone else experience this at any point? I kind of need it to stop since I'm trying to lose weight and only having luck on ZC/VLC.