Despite taking in 3200 calories a day, I'm constantly hungry, to the point of obsession - I consider it a blessing when my mind is not drifting to thoughts of eating. I am actively maintaining a weight of 125-130 lbs at a height of 5'9" by running about 30 miles a week and staying relatively active besides, and I'm being urged to put on weight.
I've tried eating completely paleo; I've done high fat, low fat, everything; breakfast today was 2 lbs of chicken and 2 lbs of parsnips, and I was starving afterward. I have eaten several lbs of steak and still felt ravenous.
Unfortunately, I also often find myself intensely craving SAD junk; cereal, muffins, ice cream, etc. It's hindering my ability to progress in other aspects of my life.
I just don't know at this point...I want to be thin and I like the way I look, but do I have reason to believe that if I gave in and just ate to satiation (which I've found to be somewhere between 6000 and 8000 calories lol) until I put on significant weight that the constant obsessive thoughts would disappear, or at least become more manageable? This sucks, and I hate not knowing where to go. I don't want to fight myself, but I don't want to become fat again (note: used to be over 200 lbs).
I realize I already posted a thread like this, and I pretty much know what type of responses to expect at this point. It just feels good to type my feelings out :(