After being strict 100% Paleo for around a year now, I went without, any alcohol, any sugar, grains, dairy (all the obvious things) but also no nuts, hardly any fruit etc. I have decided that maybe I try to loosen up a bit. ( I have received multiple comments from very close friends saying quite frankly "you are the most rigid, not-fun human alive" (sipping unsweetened tea and excusing my self to get some deli meats if nothing else is there at parties for the last year, people have started to notice...
So what I have done is only on special occasions, Christmas, or a Special Birthday, I'll allow myself "normal things" like some wine and maybe some cheats here and there. (this scares me a lot because I have never done it before) the reason in the past was a cheat would send me dow na slippery slope and i didn't feel strong enough to wake up the next morning and hop on the wagon again...but things have changed since...
So my question is..(i know its silly, but it will help me tremendously if i just know), what is actually happening physically after let's say a cheat night?
My recent experience was this, I had been clean and strict for weeks, and was quite lean and felt great! A friend's birthday came up, So i thought why not...I had wine and cheese, and some version of a "healthy SAD banana nut muffin thing" some chocolate ...not the end of the world.
But..here is what I am not used to and just need to understand so that this perhaps can be easier for me.
I of course felt like crap the next day, woke up, ate a perfect day of Paleo meals and drank lots of water, Couldn't get myself to the gym for the life of me (prob bad idea, not creating stimulus for all of that sugar to be used) so i am retaining water, feel bloated and sluggish, and of course visually am unpleased and feel uncomfortable in clothing etc..
I want to be able to handle the repercussions of my choices and just deal with feeling like this for a couple days, and say "it was worth it" but ...to me, deep down, it wasn't. I would have rather looked weird sipping tea, eating turkey rolls ups (which i would have had to bring, it was a SAD laden event) than dealign with these couple days of this..
I think some clarification on what is happening physically to me will really help, because then i can just look at the bloated rolls and heavy legs etc and not think (oh now I've done it, i must have gained 10lbs etcetc) and rather just say...it was a planned break for a night and here is the natural physiological progression of things..
Can anyone help shed some light?